Chance or Choice?


Maybe it's because I have free time on my hands? Or because I am ACTUALLY achieving my worldly education that I sought out after.

Since this journey began, I have become unusually interested in the “Process.”

Trash for example, I had become so used to throwing it in a bag and it magically disappears as if into thin air, never once stopping to think about where it goes, who takes it there, or how it gets separated. BUT…now, separating it myself into my 5 pre-bought bags and disposing of it myself forces me to take notice.

Learning Japanese starts from one word and builds on one by one, the more I know, the more confused, leading to yearning for more words and thus more confusion. Is the search for knowledge more deeply the search for understanding how dumb you actually are?

Just like each meal starts by going out and finding each ingredient and taking time to prepare it. Anything I see, I find myself wondering things like, “How is this made? Who made it? And what thought did he/she have in making it? Was it by chance or choice that it came to be?”

Everything is made by somebody. If one could stop and take the time to learn to imagine, in any and every given thing, the creator’s thoughts and the “process” it might lead to a better, more compassionate self aware life.